Enclosed by L.B. Bishop

Author:L.B. Bishop [Bishop, L.B.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-09-18T05:00:00+00:00

Chapter 17

I ran down the hall and up the flight of stairs, ignoring the looks from Emily and Mr. Hugh as I went. I ran straight into my room and, without even taking off my shoes, I fell into the bed, running over the events of the evening. I came to a sickening conclusion that I was running away again, the pressure from the evening weighing more heavily on me as I processed what was happening between us both.

I rolled around the darkness, wishing I had Abigail to talk to. I could hear her giggle and gasp with glee as I replayed the parts. “This is like a fairy tale” she would have said, and we would rejoice in the fact that a man actually took enough interest in us to risk such character as to kiss a woman they were not engaged to.

Unfortunately, I was not talking to her, or laughing about it, and tears spilled down my cheeks in a steady stream. I was miserable, and the pure terror of not having any female companions bothered me more than anything else. I wished for my town, my mother, my sister, and my loneliness grew and ached as I cried pitifully into my pillow.

I hated everything at that point, and it was that feeling to make me realize and understand what depression really was. It also made me realize I really needed to make a friend in this place or I was going to have to leave.

Looking back, I wished I could have focused on the kiss more. What His Lordship was striving for. What he meant by it. I didn’t care. I just wanted a friend, and if you never told your friend about a romantic interest or a moment where something new happened, you would understand the pain I was in.

I wiped my nose and eyes using the sleeve on my dress to clear off the wetness I conjured during my crying spell. I knew I looked wretched but I didn’t care as I hunted down to try and find Gavan.

I went out of my room quietly and looked across the hall. I noticed his door was closed and I nervously wondered if he was still waiting for me or if he gave up and returned to his room. Taking a deep breath, I knocked on his door and waited to see if he was there. I heard a shuffle behind the door and some steps as the door swung open and Gavan’s tall stature filled the door frame. Due to the darkness, I unfortunately couldn’t see his face. He stood silently, and based on the shadow of his figure, I knew he was staring down at me, waiting for me to begin talking.

“I am so sorry,” I whispered hoarsely, upset that I probably made him mad at me. I didn’t want to lose his friendship and I took a deep breath and continued.

“I know that you were expecting me but he—” I put an emphasis on “he” so that he could understand my meaning.

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